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[22 Jul 2005|03:17pm] |
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DO this!
if you read this,
even if i don't speak to you often,
post a memory of me.
it can be anything you want, it can be good or bad
just so long as it happened.
(then, post this to your journal.
see what people remember about you)
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[14 May 2005|03:48pm] |
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woah
What a fucked up friday the 13th.
crazy night.
Aparently while I was just out some real Estate people toured my apartment building with some interested buyers and my living room is COMPLETLEY TRASHED, with a massive bong on my coffee table, a digusting amount of cigarette butts everywhere, plus garbage and beer cans all over. I bet they cant wait to buy it.
Im gonna go out into west warwick now and face these little ghetto kids who have been outside blasting the crappiest alternative music all day. So loud! gah.
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[05 Mar 2005|03:48pm] |
| I am the Charmer Charm is seduction without sex. Charmers are consummate manipulators, masking their cleverness by creating a mood of pleasure and comfort. Their method is simple; they deflect attention from themselves and focus it on their target. They understand your spirit, feel your pain, adapt to your moods. In the presence of a Charmer you feel better about yourself. Learn to cast the Charmer's spell by aiming at people's primary weaknesses: vanity and self-esteem. Symbol: The Mirror. Your spirit holds a mirror up to others. When they see you they see themselves: their values, their tastes, even their flaws. Their lifelong love affair with their own image is comfortable and hypnotic; so feed it. No one ever sees what is behind the mirror. |
What Type of Seducer are You?
created by  polite_society </p>
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| mixed drinks that taste like watermelon jolly ranchers are gooooood |
[12 Dec 2004|11:21pm] |
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I woke up to my roomate's alarm clock soooo disoriented this morning, not in a sick way tho, but it lasted a couple hours. Good party last night Alyse. haha.
Today I started the aggravating task of Christmas shopping. I still managed to buy shit for myself, but hey a cute black pea coat for only $20? How could I resist?
Some guy told me I look like Margo from The Royal Tenenbaums. I've been told this before and I think it makes no sense. I'm not even blond.
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| how long must we sing this song? |
[08 Dec 2004|12:00pm] |
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I never feel like writing in this thing anymore.
I usually love Christmas but i just don't want it this year at all.
There was a fire alarm at ccri today but it was just a pull.
I'm getting another tattoo this weekend by Rob.
Isis is too cute.
I have to go to work soon and I get to play the guessing game of "what are my fellow employees on this evening?" Sometimes its not so bad, other times quite a variety.
Lame.
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[22 Oct 2004|11:44am] |
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I love my apartment. Everything is working out nicely for Meg and I. It took a few days for us to get heat and electricity and our furniture is coming in slowly peice by peice, but it doesn't matter cause i'm gettting it all for free anyway.
I'm so sleep deprived. I've been staying out so late and sleeping in such cold apartments. My apartment was freezing for the first 3 nights and then when i get heat i sleep over at friends houses for a couple nights and they had no heat either. Figures. I am not ready for this cold weather at all and i think lost weight.
The other night I went over meg's friends house and we carved a pumpkin while fucked up. Well meg hollowed it out and drew a sketch but i did all the carving. It was great tho, i haven't carved a pumpkin in so many years. The pumpkin came out looking retarted but it made everyone laugh so i put it out on the steps of my apartment building. I hope it gets smashed, if no one does I will because its ridiculous.
Yesterday on my way to work i bumped into this truck at a stop light (i coulda sworn he was going). I didn't even hit him hard and i didn't leave a single dent but there was a scratch about an inch or 2 underneath his lisence plate and he gave me hell for it. I bet it was about $20 worth of damage, if that, it wasn't even noticable. I told the guy id pay him for the paint and whatever, But instead this ass calls the cops and is making this huge deal because it was a brand new truck and it was his birthday. We ended up settling it with him calling me when he gets an estimate. I'm so fucking pissed tho, i mean i kno its my fault but he started sating he was gonna get a new bumper for like $500, but i don't think he was being serious.
time for my next class
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| I got lost |
[28 Sep 2004|04:34pm] |
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Does anyboday know where I can find a 2 bedroom apartment with heat that will rent to college kids for around 800? 900 at most. Preferably west warwick... Phone numbers please?
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[17 Aug 2004|02:05pm] |
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The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Eigth Level of Hell - the Malebolge!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Take the Dante's Divine Comedy Inferno Test
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[09 Jun 2004|01:10am] |
A is for - Age: 18
B is for - Band listening to right now: Neil Perry
C is for - Career in future: Radiologist
D is for - Dad's name: Donny Downs, sucka
E is for - Essential item to bring to a party: weed and booze
F is for - Favorite song at the moment: hmm don't have one, i've been listening to a lot of the pixies and modest mouse latley/
G is for - Guy/Girls you've kissed: boys- jeez 9? 11? 500?? I don't feel like counting but its one of the numbers over 8
H is for - Hometown: Coventry
I is for - Instruments you play: a big fat "0"... i used to play the flute. damn i suck.
J is for - Job title: waitress
K is for - Kids: none, maybe one someday but not until my late 20's.
L is for - Living arrangement: At my nana's with my mom and bro
M is for - Mom's name: Kathy
N is for - Number of people you've slept with: sexed: a low number slept next too: a high number.
O is for - Overnight hospital stays: well i know i did when i was born, so that counts,ha
P is for - Phobia[s]: long mustaches that curl at the ends
R is for - Relationship that lasted the longest: i think 2 years and 10 months... but on and off... a lot.
S is for - Sexual position: eh, don't hve one...i like to be on top, he he... sometimes
T is for - time you wake up everyday:"schooooooools out for summmmer"
U is for - Unique trait(s): you tell me
V is for - Vegetable you love: carrot sticks
W is for - Worst habit: not knowing when to keep my big mouth shut
X is for - X-rays you've had: teeth
Y is for - Yummy food you make: i don't cook. I make salad with chicken sometimes
Z is for - Zodiac sign: sagittarius
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[24 May 2004|10:28pm] |
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I need out. I don't feel the same way I used to for him.
I need something to prove its still worth it to stay together or
it may be time to move on.
Just when I think we're happy something goes wrong and he never says how he feels, but what i need is someone who shows they care bc i'm so damn insecure. (or someone who actually calls me and invities me out to do stuff@!)
This may not be the end, I don't really know whats going on, but if it is I don't think we can talk for a very long time bc if we do we'll never get over one another.
Besides all this pretty much everyone (and I do mean everyone) I talk to tells me to dump his ass... not that I listen to others (I've been told this for like ever) But at this point in time this advice deff isn't helping my veiw on trying to save the relationship.
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[23 May 2004|11:31pm] |
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Friday night was... interesting....
After I got out of work I was invited to go camping at Big River. When I get there Brandon informs me that they are taking the boat across the river to get there all night instead of taking the path cus its way faster. Brandon was also already drunk when I met him so I ended up driving his truck around west greenwich to pick up some trisha girl. A lot of people showed up at the camp spot. Including a whole group of kids I didn't even know. Meg C. and I went on a journey. There were so many weird and funny events all night long. I didn't go to bed until like 4 or 5 and I woke up at 8 cus i slept very uncomfortably in a tent full of snoring people. Meg and I went out for breakfast and then hung out for a bit and went back to the camp spot with Kevo, Cal, and Nick that afternoon. We smoked and started drinking a little too early that day. he he.
Today I worked 8 hours. When I came home my stepdad (who I haven't seen in a year and a half) was at the house. Seeing him brought back pleasant and unpleasant memories, which made me think of the past and i got really sad. Luckily meg c. called me so she stopped by and we went out for a high ride.
Tomorrow I get to see Meg V. yay, its been too long girl.
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[17 May 2004|12:02am] |
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Today I feel like going to the zoo. I dunno why, I havent been there since I was really little, but I kno I loved it.
Saturday I had a good time at Nicole's party. There was more people I ddin't kno than I did know, but it was alright, I still had fun.
Yesterday I went bathing suit shopping at the Prov. Place mall with Nicole M. and we actually both found really cute bathing suits super cheap. We're such picky people too. After shopping we grabbed a bite to eat, stopped by my house, and then went back to her place at like 7. We watched cartoons and drank some blue Hypnotiq while her bf cooked. Her bf's uncle (called uncle Cracker by everyone, lol) stopped by with his gf and we went with them to pick up and smoke a blunt.
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After work tonight I met up wih Kevo cal and Brandon at B's house. They were all prety buzzed when I fot there and brandon was nice enouch to share his alcohol. We then went to Brandon's apartment. We watched chapeel's show an d played with nudie cards (witch cal enjoyed to much). It was way too hot in the apartment so we all went outside. Me and cal sat in a kid's little plastic yellow playhouse with red shudders and drank and smoked. It was awseom lol, even though cal broke the little chair that was inside it. We talked a lot about traveelling. I think I'm going away next weekend to Delaware.
I'm pissed cus my car is gonna reek like alcohol in the morning. shit got spilled.
I'm also pisssed cus I gotta work tomorrow. Latly I've been working 5 days a week/ plus babysitting. gah its to much... but the money is nice of course. i'm stupid and alwys get myself stuck filling in for people.
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[05 May 2004|09:45pm] |
Today I got an unexpected phone call from my friend Nicole who I haven't talked to in about a year and a half!! Over a year ago she went to live with her bf and just flat out dissapeared.
I picked her up this afternoon, she lives in Coventry now and is pretty close to me which is awsome. We chatted about what we've been doing with our lives, showed our tattoos and peircings to each other and went down to URI to visit Meg. We got caramel iced coffee's and had lots of girly talk. Nicole had a hair appointment tonight so she and I then went to west warwick, but we got there too early so we grabbed a bite to eat. She paid for me. She's so sweet. Nicole's bf Kevin met up with us at the salon, I had heard some not so pleasent things about this boy but i ended up getting along with him better than I expected. He and I went to look at some tattoos at this place down the road while Nicole got her hair dyed. I'd really like to get another tattoo, but i haven't decided on anything yet.
Now i'm home and I hafta study for my last final tomorrow. Its for History, yuck.
By the way, fire is amazing when your on shrooms.
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[04 May 2004|11:38am] |
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So yesterday I did a whole lotta nothing. I saw a lot of people though. I hung out with Nick, Chris Murphy and Kristin for a little while early in the day, then I went to get Zeke but I guess Chris thought i wasn;t coming back so they ended up going out somewhere with Adam. Zeke and I ended up finding Gary and Cal so we hung out with them for a few hours and smoked. We met up with Kevo but there was nothing to do so we went our separate ways. While Zeke and I were waiting for Nick to call my cell back we got chinese food. yum.
I ended up hanging out with Cal on Sunday too. We didn't do much. We ended up meeting up with Chris M., Chris R., Adam, and Nick and we played pool.
woah I almost forgot I've gotta drop Nick's shit off at his house that he left in my car. I'm out.
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| sometimes memories kill me |
[30 Apr 2004|02:53pm] |
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The other day I heard that working an 8 hour shift in a restaurant with a smoking section, a person gets as much second hand smoke as if they smoked an entire pack of ciggarettes!
Eh lets hope thats exagerated... I work 7 hour shifts all the time! My poor lungs.
1.Go into your LJ's archives.
2.Find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3.Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4.Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions
"The next day meg c. and I ended up getting in trouble for it but it was worth it."
I forgot about that day he he he.
i'm usaully very future oriented but those few times i actually take a moment to stop and think back, everything just comes rushing to my mind. The change is just overwelming.
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[28 Apr 2004|10:13am] |
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At ccri now. My last day of classes is friday.
Holy shit.
I'm happy.
I've got one final next thursday but thats it, nada in between.
I've got way to much energy right now.
 Ha, this pic looks exactly like my dog Moochie.
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